A year ago today

A year ago today Tom and I went to the

ultrasound that changed our lives. When we were told

our little baby has Spina Bifida we were devastated.

No one wants these things to happen.
I'm writing this post today to talk about what I have learned.

I've learned the old adage, "time heals all wounds," is a good one.

When the Doctor told us about Henry she was very negative.

She said the brain didn't form properly,

the skull didn't form properly, the spine didn't form properly,

and that we "had options."

She said it like it would be cruel to keep him!

It was overwhelming to hear,

and see that so many things had gone wrong.

What if we had listened to her?

It isn't easy to face terrifying situations,

when you are terrified!

I don't think people who decide to end their pregnancies

understand what they are giving up.

A year ago today I didn't,

I was crying myself to sleep at 1:00 in

the afternoon feeling like my poor little baby was broken.

A year ago today Tom and I were wishing this hadn't happened.

But we believe that God knows what he is doing.

So we dealt with the news by fasting, praying,

and trying to accept the worst, and hope for the best.

This enabled us to let "Time" do it's thing,

but we still had ups and downs.

One particularily bad day I was worrying about

all the things that could go wrong, and praying for something

happy to focus on. That is the day my ultrasound Tech

asked me if I would be willing to use the 3-d machine because

she needed some practice!

I was speechless when my little guy's face came up on the screen.

It was exactly what I needed. What a blessing!
I was given a glimps of this...

once we held our little one nothing else mattered.

How could it? Look at this adoreable little man!

His body may not be perfect, but he is.

Sometimes God sends you an Angel.

3 months

7months

Henry is doing so well, he truly is a miracle kid

who continues to exceed the Doctors expectations.

A year ago is gone, "TIME" has healed our wounds, and

what was once the reason for our sorrow

is now our joy.